Thoughts

So what do you do when someone close to you is diagnosed with cancer? :( In this case its nothing severe but I never thought that it would ever happen. Only merely thought about.
That person always seems to be smiling. If fact I found during meal as if it were just a seemingly trivial matter.
Deep down its hard to know how they feel. They only suffer the thought of worrying those who support you. Those who take you to the GP, deliver you fruit, boil herbal teas. But all you can do for them is keep on smiling and help them live each day to the fullest. As if eating more anticarcinogenic leafy veg would really help..? But they also want you to live each day happy too...
Just imagine if one day you were to turn blind.. it could be this time next year. Or... tomorrow?
Have you ever witnessed 'blacking out' yet you are still fully conscious. Darkness sweeps over your open eyes yet you try to seek out any light.
So every morning open your eyes [despite the bug-eyed appearance] and take in every one of the million sights and colours because they would be missed. Even the usual daily blur that you see out of the window as you daydream on the bus wishing you were still in bed, sleeping, eyes closed.

I don't want to let this news affect anyone else I know. It might make matters worse. Kind of like when you have an annoying headache and telling someone about it and having them to care for you which constantly reminds you of it and making you pity yourself when in fact the headache wasn't even that bad in the first place.. So in a way making matters worse, you know?
All I can do is pray for that person to quietly get better.
So for now I'm just writing my thoughts here :) ..even if they don't make a lot of sense. Prepare for a lot more..